Sunny day

Outside is very sunny and yet mummy's heart felt very cold and hurting.. Mummy's world is dark and cloudy unlike the sun outside the window.. My precious  yay yay where are you now? Are you around mummy? Are you re born in another family, are you happy, are you growing up, are you healthier, are you being taken care of, are there people there to take care of you when mummy cannot be there? There are so many things mummy wish that mummy can do for you.. Mummy promised to take care of you and love you but was not given the chance to do that.. What I would do just to hold you now..