Mummy was so happy that daddy finally was ready to have you as our third baby after so many years. Mummy was also looking forward to having you join the family and bring joy to all of us.. And this time to be more prepare to breast feed you for longer period.
Mummy even look into getting a better breast pump to help express more milk for you when mummy go back to work. Mummy was also looking forward to have three month leave to stay home with you and your two brothers..
Mummy was looking forward to have you born into this world on the 6 oct. But you had decided not to come out till 13 October whereby the doctor had to induce mummy so that mummy can start labour and give birth to you. On 14 October you joined us and for the first time mummy saw, feel and touch you on my chest. The feeling was wonderful to have you out of mummy's tummy to feel you and hold you on mummy's chest.
Mummy was so surprised that you weight 4.17 kg and how mummy was able to give birth to you naturally. Mummy was so happy and relieved when you came out and wanting to rest. Though you were a healthy boy therefore mummy took the chance to rest and let you rest..
Mummy am still very sorry that mummy didn't notice you were having difficulty in breathing and how you had turned blue. Mummy didn't get much chance to hold you and kiss you.. And you had to be admitted to SCBU.
For 13 days you struggled to keep your life, mummy appreciated it. But also at the same time hurt for you for you had to suffer so much at this very young age.
On 27 October, when dr Elizabeth say you are not responding to the medication and we are going to lose you.. Mummy felt so sad and hurt and don't want to let you go.. This is the saddest thing that had happened and mummy's life changed from that moment onwards.
Yay yay, till today mummy still hurt when I think of you. Wishing that you were here everyday as life are not the same without you..
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