Wednesday, January 28, 2015

I fell in love with you


A silent wish that you were here


I wanted to call you


Mummy saw butterflies today

Today mummy saw a beautiful butterfly in the parking lot at mummy office.. Straightaway mummy thought of you.
Then as mummy was going for a lunch date with a doctor mummy saw a moth in the shop lot on top of mummy.. Mummy thought of you again.. Then as mummy was sending you big brother home, mummy saw a beautiful butterfly fly just behind mummy's cAr and mummy thought of you being around us all the time. Mummy miss and hope you are here for mummy to hug and kiss

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

I promised


3rd month Angelaniversary

Baby Yay, today mark the 3rd month that you had left us.. Mummy still feel like asking why you had left.. Was mummy not good enough for you to stay... Why you had to go... Why why why.. Everyday goes by without me not missing you my dear baby.. Hoping you were here with me..

烨烨,妈咪很想念你。想抱抱你。

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Where are you now

Yay, where are you now? What are you doing? Mummy is missing you again and no one understands how it feel to have go through this and losing you. The world is just too cruel and lots of things we need to face even with such broken heart. What do they expect us to do?! 

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Beautiful big butterfly in mummy's dream

Yesterday night mummy dream of you coming as a beautiful big butterfly in mummy's dream.. Really missed you so much my baby Jay yay

Mummy missed you

Yay, mummy missed you so much.. I almost break down just now in the gathering as mummy heard about their sharing on their children... 

Monday, January 19, 2015

As long as mummy live, you will always be my baby


Mummy start work today

Yay, mummy is starting work today officially. When you were in mummy's tummy mummy was thinking on how to go back to work and take care of you.. But now you are not here... Mummy missed the stress feeling mummy had when mummy had you in mummy's tummy..how mummy wish you would come back..

How hard days it had been without you


If only I could hold you


You are beautiful

Today mummy saw you fly beside mummy.. You are beautiful.. Mummy know you are happy and have no pain unlike what you suffering here.. Mummy wish you were still here with mummy. Loving you always my jay yay

Saturday, January 17, 2015

All the stuffs for you to use

Before you were born mummy had bought some of the items for you to use like the baby wipes, pampers etc.. Didn't know that you didn't have the chance to use it. Now mummy is clearing it.. N tears came again.. Mummy really missed you so much 

So many babies around 17 jan 2015

Yay today mummy is flying back to Brunei. But stopped in kl for a bit of shopping. When at the shopping center. There are so many babies around.. Made it unbearable for mummy as mummy wished I could hold and kiss you and bring you shopping like all the mothers.. But... 

Mummy really miss you so much.. The feeling is so unbearable and now as I write this mummy feel like crying..

Friday, January 16, 2015

What mummy did today

Today had been a busy day for mummy.
We had update meeting this morning and the follow by team building this afternoon. Then mummy's team won first prize for the team building. So cool right.. All these time mummy
Was thinking about you my beloved yay

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

At Melaka

Yay, mummy had been traveling yesterday and are at Melaka having a company meeting. As it was quite busy so mummy didn't write anything to you but still missing you dearly my baby yay yay

Half of my heart with you


Monday, January 12, 2015

Saturday, January 10, 2015

For those few weeks



Forever in mummy's heart


Goodbyes are not forever


I love you


As I sit here


Moth and butterflies

Yay,
 This morning when mummy woke up there was a moth that fly around mummy for two circle and mummy knew it was you.. How I wish I can hug you in my arms..

Today mummy had seen several times that there was a white butterflies that flow across the street in front of mummy's car when mummy was driving and I knew it was you.. I mummy had wished that you were in mummy's car looking at mummy with your adorable eyes as we go and pick you brothers..

Mummy know all these cannot be happening as you already in heaven. Nothing can replace these pains in mummy's heart

How much we missed you


My sweet angel son Jay Yay


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